i was telling ray that i think it's weird i'm not feeling any stress at all. usually one week before any major exams i'd be so high-strung i would snap at my mum when she asks more questions than i wanted to answer (and feel horrigible, terrigible, like a vegetable afterwards SORRY MRSO_DEN!) and all the time, when i'm studying or whatever, there would be this "white noise" in the back of my mind like the static u hear on radio.. and it just made me grouchier than ever. heck, in the last month or so i was under so much pressure that i used to wake up and find my jaws clenched tightly..
but now i've got this clarity of mind that i've hardly ever experienced, and i actually feel happy and look forward to doing math sums, going thru the lit texts thoroughly, and finally sitting for promos. strange eh? :) so i was wondering, what happened? how did stress leave me overnight?
then it hit me, because this is what i asked of God, to take my anxieties and burden away and replace it with His peace. so yup, it all began with a prayer :)

wait, actually it all began with me misplacing my handphone pouch last friday. i went to sch late because i dint feel up to friday morning GP lesson, being on medication for my cough and all.. so when i got to school, there was the whole PW WR submission episode which basically involved lotsa mad dashing and me banging my forehead against a doorframe in a rush to see mrsD and by the end of that i was so irritated i couldn't sit down to concentrate on math at all. then as if having a throbbing headache and engaging in a staring contest with math wasnt bad enough, i realised my pouch had pulled a disappearing act. i was freaking pissed by then obviously. if i lose my hp i would cry, because there were so many messages fr my friends tt i really treasure and still look thru from time to time for inspiration and motivation to press on not to mention PICTURES OF MY FRIENDS DOING WEIRD STUFF THAT I CAN SO TOTALLY USE FOR BLACKMAILING IN THE FUTURE haha like this one of elisa trying to find out if the pair of blue shorts she liked in royal sporting hse was her size by measuring it against her neck (as suggested by a very insistent jave).

ok digressed. anyways, i was so distraught i angsted for 1hr++ and i was already in chinese lit before it occurred to me that i could pray about it. O_O so i prayed.. and when class ended i dashed back to the sr we were in for math and asked bren, sru, etc if they saw it and they all said no. UNTIL this girl that i don't really know bent down and looked underneath the chair i was sitting on and FOUND MY POUCH DANGLING OFF THE BOTTOM OF THE SEAT!!! cos the blue sequined star got caught between the plastic seat and the metal leg.. wahlao. i almost died laughing in relief and amusement! could've sworn i looked all around me, and to think i was sitting on it, literally, all along!

so i know that was a really minor episode and u're wondering how on earth is it related to stress? yah well, that night before i went to sleep, i was thinking about it and it suddenly struck me, something i've conveniently forgot all along, ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE. nothing is too big or small for God, so long as you ask for it, and God must have planned for what happened to happen to remind me just that. so that night i prayed and traded in everything that has been disturbing me and distracted me from Him for His joy and peace :))

i havent had much chance to talk to most of the canoobs since this break from trng started but i just want yawl to know that there's really no point worrying. God's laid out our lives for us and like always, JUST DO YOUR BEST AND GOD WILL DO THE REST. this time i'm really living it. :)

..and i was reading 2 Cor 4, which Delirious has got in a song:

I am pressed but not crushed
persecuted, but not abandoned
struck down, but not destroyed
I am blessed beyond the curse,
for His promise will endure
and His joy will be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning.

:) HEARTS UP PEOPLE! we'll make it.
go to, then; your considerate stone.
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